Phase 2 Day 9 Round 1 (P2D9R1)

Well, now I have swung completely the other way and have no desire for food at all. It's 1pm and I haven't eaten a thing, I'm not hungry and the idea of eating semi-repulses me. I'm not sleeping, either. Now, I know this isn't healthy and I'll just have to kick myself in the butt and force myself to eat. Sleep on the other hand, I just can't seem to make myself do that. I'm not taking naps (in truth, I'm not even feeling sleepy during the day...or night) hoping that will help, but it hasn't yet. I'm starting to feel physically tired, but my brain will NOT stop thinking and doesn't seem to be close to getting tired. Very annoying. Anyhow, I'm thinking that when the kids go back to school and I get into more of a routine with that, maybe things will be better. Hope so. I wish I could just put my finger on what is wrong. I'm not depressed, don't feel trapped as I sometimes do, I just don't feel right. Oh well, this too shall pass and I'm sure I'll learn something from it. Off to force some lunch down!

Still thanking God for illness...

So I get over my head cold, feel good for one day and then wham...intestinal bug. Talk about being able to refrain from over indulging in the food department. LOL I ate what I was supposed to and that is it! I'm feeling a little better today, not quite so much pain. So plan on catching up on a little housework. I'm not going to workout today except to maybe take a walk later depending on how the digestive system is feeling. But I will stick to the eating plan. Hopefully fully recovered by tomorrow as poor hubby is having a tooth pulled and it's his turn to be babied!

Thanking God for illness

I feel like BLAH!! I have a head cold and missed my workout yesterday as the world was spinning pretty good. But to be a true optimist I have found the bright side.

1. It's a lot easier to follow an eating plan when you can't really taste the food. I've had no problem! And I've had no problem drinking my water as the decongestant makes me thirsty.

2. I am sick on a weekend! My wonderful hubby has been taking such great care of me by grocery shopping, entertaining the kids, and letting me just play on the computer, watch movies, read and do whatever else helps me feel better. He rocks!

God knows what He's doing. I was still struggling with the eating plan, getting over the withdrawal hump, constantly craving food. Because of the last couple of days being sick, the cravings are gone and I'll be able to focus on the next 23 days of my eating cycle a lot easier.

Well, off to eat some lunch. Sorry if this is rambling, but the world is still spinning a little and I'm just generally a little loopy. :o) Hope to feel better tomorrow!

Learning to appreciate accomplishments

In case you haven't noticed I've been gone a while. I didn't fall off of the wagon, I jumped! I "hated" working out and was tired of the whole kit and kaboodle. I was discouraged with my progress and had convinced myself that any results I may have seen were not equaling the amount of work I was putting into this.

Now, after some time off, I've slowly climbed back up on the wagon to take off on my journey again. Some things I noticed...I only gained 5lbs. Well, not bad, you may think and it's true...that's not bad. But the amount of inches I have put on has me kicking myself. And I have come to a realization...don't take your accomplishments for granted.

I didn't realize until I had put the fat back on, just how much I had lost in my belly area, hip area, thighs, etc. I became focused on where I was (at that moment…still so far from my goal) and not on where I came from. I came from being 282 lbs, so overweight my belly rubbed against the steering wheel when I drove, so out of breath I couldn’t hike, play or dance. Where I was at (when I jumped off the wagon) was 40+ lbs lighter, able to drive unimpeded, and able to hike, play and dance. Unfortunately my little side excursion has set me back a little, but I’ve learned some valuable lessons…ones that will only help make me stronger and give me more tools to make it all the way.

I’ve learned that every single step made toward your goal, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, is still a step forward, not backwards. I need to focus more on what I have already accomplished rather than what I still need to accomplish. I guess it’s a little like walking forward while looking backward. LOL Usually not a recipe for success, but for me, where I am right now on my journey, it’s what I need to do.

While I feel like I don’t really deserve to be offering any sage advice, I highly recommend moving forward not backwards to reach your goals. Make one small change in your life that pushes you in the right direction. But don’t forget to look back and appreciate just how far you’ve come.