Much easier week

This week has been much easier staying on track. I always hate getting back on track, it wreaks havoc on my mind and body, but the cobwebs have been cleared once again and it's much easier to make the right choices. I've had a couple of evenings of wanting to eat before bed and I have so far been able to either just go to bed or grab a piece of gum to chew. I'm watching the snow fall, not enough to cover the ground, but it's still pretty, although I had some grumpy kids who really were wishing for a snow day. Maybe tomorrow. :o) Off to get something accomplished for the day!

2 days back on track and counting...

Today is the 3rd day of being on track. It's a little easier, but HHT can attest to the fact that I've been pretty out of it for the past 2 days. I always forget how cold and tired I get when I quit all the binge eating, which if I could remember these nasty feelings, one would think that would be enough reason to not go back to the bad eating.

I sat down and figured out if I was to lose a pound a week how long it would take to reach my ultimate goal. So my target for being 150lbs is July 31, 2010. Long time from now, but it takes some pressure off and is definitely a healthy way to get there. Now, with the vamping of goals, I thought I'd change the way I reward myself as well. I know me and I know that if I come in under my goal for a week, I'll view that as a reason to splurge a little. Not that splurging is necessarily a bad thing, but for me at the moment, it is. Anyway, I will be rewarding myself "gold stars" for each week that I'm under my goal weight for that week. And I'll be coming up with a variety of things to save up the stars for...movies, weekends away, etc. Still a work in progress and is of course subject to change before I reach my goal. It all depends on what I need at the time for it to work for me. Right now, this is it.

I have been writing my food intake down in a little book that I keep in the kitchen. Last night was the hardest for me. We had pizza and I was jonesing for a whole piece and was just really having to fight my cravings. It helped that we had to grocery shop and that later HHT put the leftovers away for me.

So that's it from here for now. Oh and off topic completely, check out http://www.pandora.com
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Struggles

Yep, struggling...that's a good word to describe my current state of mind. I'm going back to out of control eating and I don't like it. Everyday I tell myself I'm not going to do it and then I do it. So, as much as I hate to do it, I think I'm going to have to come back to blogging my food intake everyday. At least write it down somewhere. And go back to preparing my food the day ahead of time. I'm not giving up at all and I'm confident that even with my current backslide, I will reach my ultimate goal. Now I can pretty much guarantee that I won't be reaching my 80lbs lost mark in 08. Even if I could reach that, it wouldn't be in a healthy way. :o) So for 2009 I'm going to do my goals a little differently. My 1st one is to be in the 220s by the 17th of January. As of this morning that would be a loss of 7.2lbs to reach that goal. On the 17th, HHT and I are on our way to Lincoln City exactly one year from the time we went last year when my journey began.

I really need your prayers! I'm pretty sure I'm doing the whole stress eating thing to avoid facing things I don't want to face. So, I'm going to be doing some soul searching to figure out what I'm hiding from and then I'm going to face it head on!

Bottom line, still here. Haven't done as well as I would have liked, but I'm also not going to use it as an excuse to stop.