New level of dedication

Last week I was on this antibiotic that made me feel queasy unless I ate something. Problem was I was taking it in the evening after dinner and would eat something to settle my tummy. I bought a drumstick (the yummy Nestle kind) at a Relay for Life meeting and decided I could have that to take my meds with. Well, I'm in the van on the way home and look at the calorie content (ok, I was parked at the time and not driving...I don't recommend looking at labels and driving). It's staggering! So, I come home, put it in the freezer and instead grab a celery stick to eat with my meds. A CELERY STICK over a Nestle drumstick!

This story would be even more awesome had I not polished off that drumstick this morning. I've had a bad day of eating. I'm going to nip it in the bud right now, though before the whole day is shot. I will get back to it for afternoon snack and dinner. But, hey, the drumstick lasted in my freezer for 3 whole days! New record! And I know I can make good choices and follow through with them. Still needs work, but I'm improving and that is what matters!

Ugh! Medicine not so fun!

Ok, bad imitation of a caveman (cavewoman?) there, but I feel so ugh, I don't care. I've been following everything just fine as far as the eating plan so the only difference between this week and last week is this antibiotic that I'm on. I'm up 2lbs, but I'm not worried about it. As long as I stick to it, I'm getting healthier. But, this medicine makes me queasy, and have I mentioned ugh feeling, so I just want to whine and since it's my blog I'll whine if I want to.

Ok, I'm done. I can't stand whining even if I'm the one doing it. Only 3 more doses and I'll be finished. Probably should have guessed there could be issues with it...I mean any medicine that says DO NOT drink alcohol while taking this can't be good, right? :o)

I'm overwhelmed at the moment with life in general and overbooking myself, but I'm not going to let that derail me (although I've been mightily tempted to give in to that emotional eating monster). After this weekend things will slow a bit...mostly because I'm going to make them slow a bit. :o)

Off to start my day. I'm a Garfield, I'm a Garfield, I'm a Garfield (reference to the Garfield cats you see in car windows who stick in there and hang on). :o)

Emotional Eating

I'm pretty sure I've blogged about this before, but I'm going to do it again anyway. This Saturday was a bad day. No, I didn't fall off the wagon again, and as a matter of fact, I've stuck faithfully to my eating plan for a full week and have lost 9.8lbs! My problem was this overwhelming desire to curl up in the fetal position in a dark room where there was absolute silence. Since this is impractical when you have 4 children, let alone when you're sitting on the side of a road watching a parade, I was unable to get the silence I was craving. Things did not improve when we returned home. Did I mention I have 4 kids? Yeah, silence is not something that was going to happen anytime soon not to mention things like grocery shopping needed to be done. Without having the down time I wanted, I started getting really irritable. Like, I will literally chew your head off and feel so much better kind of irritable. I struggled to say anything nice, heck I struggled not to yell at everyone for every little thing, and I think I failed. Worst of all was the feeling of confusion...why was I so angry? The plan was working, I'd followed it without fail, I'd had a good family day...why was I so on edge? It wasn't until I laid down in bed that night that the thought hit me...I was dealing with my emotions without food. I've never mastered the art of dealing with my emotions without food. Food is how I deal with all my emotions. Happy times, we go out to celebrate. I'm upset, scared, hurt, I reach for the comfort food. I honestly don't know any other way to deal with any emotion. But after this weekend, it's a new goal of mine. I can't be that grumpy anytime I experience an emotion without being able to eat to drown it out. Lay on the suggestions...what are some of the things you do to deal with your emotions in a positive, healthy way?

It's amazing what following a plan can do!

Alright, so I admit that I only half heartedly followed last 6 weeks plan. I did manage to not miss a single workout so that was an improvement. However, by the end of last 6 weeks, I was actually heavier than I was at the beginning of the 6 weeks. BUMMER! I'm proud of myself because I didn't let that knowledge get me down. Rather I used it to get serious about this round of 6 weeks. I'm on Day 5 of this 6 weeks and have been faithful to the plan every day so far. Not only did I lose 4.2 lbs the 1st day, I'm now down to less than I even hit in the last 6 weeks...in just 4 days. If that ain't motivation to stick with the plan, I don't know what is. So. hopefully by the end of this round by sticking to it, I can get back on track on my mini goals. Will workout today and tomorrow as I have a parade to attend on Saturday. Life is good.