Body Clutter Investigator
Daily Chart
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Starting weight: 276.8lbs
Today’s Scale Reading: 268.8lbs
Gain/loss: -8lbs
Attitude:
Overall better than yesterday. Still a little down. HHT thinks it may be hormones due to PMS (I know a TMI - and also I'm seeing how many acronyms I can fit into one sentence). I really hope that is what it is. I began thinking that it's a little scary losing weight. I haven't been heavy all of my life, but for most of it and even when I wasn't heavy, I was using food as a crutch or drug as some would say (which is how I became heavy in the 1st place). Now that I can no longer drown my sorrows in a bag of chips, I find I feel inadequate to deal with my emotions. I'm not inadequate, just feel that way. And I'm leaking a lot more...like a real girl. It's annoying to the tom-boy that I am. If only it really were as easy as just exercising and eating right. There's a lot of soul searching that has to go on to lose weight and be healthier, too. I think there's some form of exorcising that needs to be done as well. Anyway, it's a little scary because I always think I look differently than I truly do. A form of denial if you will. My identity is a little bit tied up in what I've done for the past 20 years. So who am I really? Am I the friendly, heavy friend to all? Will I still be the same person underneath even when I don't look like this? Will I be the friendly, thinner friend to all? A journey like this will tend to change me in some ways other than physical. Just the stamina to continue it is a change in my personality. Well, just some rambling thoughts for today. I'm sure all this emotional baggage will also get worked out by the end. I'll see to that.
Daily Chart
You can find this chart and other useful info at: http://www.flylady.net/pages/body_clutter_main.asp
Starting weight: 276.8lbs
Today’s Scale Reading: 268.8lbs
Gain/loss: -8lbs
Attitude:
Overall better than yesterday. Still a little down. HHT thinks it may be hormones due to PMS (I know a TMI - and also I'm seeing how many acronyms I can fit into one sentence). I really hope that is what it is. I began thinking that it's a little scary losing weight. I haven't been heavy all of my life, but for most of it and even when I wasn't heavy, I was using food as a crutch or drug as some would say (which is how I became heavy in the 1st place). Now that I can no longer drown my sorrows in a bag of chips, I find I feel inadequate to deal with my emotions. I'm not inadequate, just feel that way. And I'm leaking a lot more...like a real girl. It's annoying to the tom-boy that I am. If only it really were as easy as just exercising and eating right. There's a lot of soul searching that has to go on to lose weight and be healthier, too. I think there's some form of exorcising that needs to be done as well. Anyway, it's a little scary because I always think I look differently than I truly do. A form of denial if you will. My identity is a little bit tied up in what I've done for the past 20 years. So who am I really? Am I the friendly, heavy friend to all? Will I still be the same person underneath even when I don't look like this? Will I be the friendly, thinner friend to all? A journey like this will tend to change me in some ways other than physical. Just the stamina to continue it is a change in my personality. Well, just some rambling thoughts for today. I'm sure all this emotional baggage will also get worked out by the end. I'll see to that.
5 things I’m grateful for:
1. This blog - sshh don't tell my HHT - OOPS he probably just saw this :o)
2. Kids having fun
3. Being loved
4. Having deep thoughts
5. turkey bacon
5 things I did right:
1. Stuck to the plan
1. Stuck to the plan
2. got all my water in
3. worked out
4. wore my shoes
5. shined my sink (for all those flybabies)
Food intake:
Breakfast:
Breakfast:
2 eggs - 2 carb
2 sausage links - 1 carb
Morning Snack:
Morning Snack:
1 medium carrot - 4 carb
1/2 cup milk - 6.5 carb
Lunch:
3oz chicken
Lunch:
3oz chicken
1 slice american cheese - 2 carb
1/2 cucumber - FREE
Afternoon snack:
protein shake
protein shake
Dinner:
3 slices turkey bacon - 1.5 carb
3 slices turkey bacon - 1.5 carb
1oz cheddar cheese
1/2 cucumber - FREE
Evening snack:
2oz cheddar cheese
Total:
17 carb
Movement:
Did I move any today?
yes - 20 minute cardio, 10 minute stretch
2 comments:
I completely understand about food being a crutch in place of dealing with your emotions. I feel like I've been the queen of that kingdom for a long time. Before getting preggo I had lost 15 pounds and it was exciting but scary too. Boredom is one of my emotional downfalls when it comes to eating. I didn't know what to do with myself. You know I really learned to start turning to God more. Man, did it help. Once I acknowledged that I could not do it on my own, it seemed to get so much easier.
I am *so* proud of you Rach! Congrats on the weight loss so far!
I am in fact reading your blog. Keep up the good work! Stretch is watching 8-)
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